Wednesday, March 18, 2009
As we enter (young) adulthood we start developing life plans and everything you do or want to do probably have long term implications. Well for me anyway. I develop all these ideals but when I actually step back to take a look at the big picture, these ideals seem foolish and unattainable. Because the road I’m on seems to be taking me in a different direction.
and i can't really do what i want. well i guess i could but that would probably involve dropping out of school or smth drastic like that.
But the more I think about it, I guess I can see why God doesn’t allow my life to go according to my plan.
I don’t know what’s best for me I guess. All I know is what I want and not what I need.
Patience, I think it’s an extremely important virtue which I have yet to achieve (if that’s even the right word to use). A day, a month, even a year, is just a fraction of a second in God’s definition of time. All I can do is pray, hope and wait.
My family and relatives are going to Malaysia over the Good Friday weekend and I can’t go because it’s the weekend just before the exams. Super bummed about it. ): like why didn’t this kind of opportunity come my way when I was on my 7month ‘holiday’ last year? It really sucks. I did think of going but if I do badly for the exams I’ll be kicking myself for going so better not take the risk.
It doesn’t pay to be a good little girl. Other people still have more fun than you do.
shoots i'm emo-ing again. let's talk about smth happier. well on tuesday i was messaging some of the class people seeing if anyone wanted to go for life concert with me (it's just an excuse to return to sa haha and to meet up too) and i sent a mass message which began with "hello dears would any of you..." and when chandra replied he said "hi dear i'm not sure i'll confirm with you again." and i just burst out laughing. hahahaha. and i was on the train i believe so it was kinda embarrassing. :P that boy never fails to crack me up.
oh and i saw mr ho today! i was at nie having lunch when i saw him and he said he was here for some conference. he remembers me! haha. i miss mr ho. he's the nicest teacher ever.
and amos called today! ok it was only to ask if i was going home cos he was leaving soon too (his camp's at boon lay) and wouldn't i love a companion home. but yeah resisted the urge to go home. haha. but it was good to hear from him. i miss amos i think he's one of the few that has to put up with all my crap and crying and whining.
i miss bf too. our communication levels are like way low these days. but i think i'm the only one who feels it. damn i need to be more busy.
Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there's so many things that I want you to know
I won't give up till it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know
I wish I could save you
And I wished we had the same interests too. And that you would not fall asleep during my favourite movies.
As we enter (young) adulthood we start developing life plans and everything you do or want to do probably have long term implications. Well for me anyway. I develop all these ideals but when I actually step back to take a look at the big picture, these ideals seem foolish and unattainable. Because the road I’m on seems to be taking me in a different direction.
and i can't really do what i want. well i guess i could but that would probably involve dropping out of school or smth drastic like that.
But the more I think about it, I guess I can see why God doesn’t allow my life to go according to my plan.
I don’t know what’s best for me I guess. All I know is what I want and not what I need.
Patience, I think it’s an extremely important virtue which I have yet to achieve (if that’s even the right word to use). A day, a month, even a year, is just a fraction of a second in God’s definition of time. All I can do is pray, hope and wait.
My family and relatives are going to Malaysia over the Good Friday weekend and I can’t go because it’s the weekend just before the exams. Super bummed about it. ): like why didn’t this kind of opportunity come my way when I was on my 7month ‘holiday’ last year? It really sucks. I did think of going but if I do badly for the exams I’ll be kicking myself for going so better not take the risk.
It doesn’t pay to be a good little girl. Other people still have more fun than you do.
shoots i'm emo-ing again. let's talk about smth happier. well on tuesday i was messaging some of the class people seeing if anyone wanted to go for life concert with me (it's just an excuse to return to sa haha and to meet up too) and i sent a mass message which began with "hello dears would any of you..." and when chandra replied he said "hi dear i'm not sure i'll confirm with you again." and i just burst out laughing. hahahaha. and i was on the train i believe so it was kinda embarrassing. :P that boy never fails to crack me up.
oh and i saw mr ho today! i was at nie having lunch when i saw him and he said he was here for some conference. he remembers me! haha. i miss mr ho. he's the nicest teacher ever.
and amos called today! ok it was only to ask if i was going home cos he was leaving soon too (his camp's at boon lay) and wouldn't i love a companion home. but yeah resisted the urge to go home. haha. but it was good to hear from him. i miss amos i think he's one of the few that has to put up with all my crap and crying and whining.
i miss bf too. our communication levels are like way low these days. but i think i'm the only one who feels it. damn i need to be more busy.
Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there's so many things that I want you to know
I won't give up till it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know
I wish I could save you
And I wished we had the same interests too. And that you would not fall asleep during my favourite movies.
watchin u;
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